||[Mar. 2nd, 2011|11:18 pm]
School. That seems to be the first thing that comes out of my mouth when ever anyone asks me what I've been up to anymore. You know, as if NO ONE else is doing it. But what am I doing there, though? Apparently bullshitting if I bombed my anatomy test that I studied three weeks for (Sure, I could be referring to a 'C', but I don't study for THAT). I'm over here stressing over it and I can't help but wonder: Why?
I'm starting to think certain people have the right idea about life: Enjoy every moment of it. Work to earn just enough to keep a roof over your head and buy the newest video game out, and find some like minded individuals who would be willing to do that in San Francisco. Split the rent amongst them, and everyone be happy! I could find me a honey who ALSO has the same idea, and we can live in some shabby apartment and be merry that way. Sometimes, that seems perfect...So why don't I do it? Maybe the idea was to prove to myself that I am smart enough for college (something that I never thought otherwise prior to 2009). I keep imagining being able to support a big family with someone who has the same dream in mind. Perhaps that's what I'm fighting for.
At any rate...
This place is baron, and I highly doubt that anyone reads much anymore, but I think that's what makes it charming to me at the moment...almost like a real diary (never-mind the fact that I actually have one). Maybe this could be a new beginning for Kirby_c05.